Just a random journal on my thoughts and future plans (that I usually never accomplish orz)
Anyway, it feels good to make plans for the future and never keep them...

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I'm having problems with art, it just feels like I'm not improving but regressing. It's really irritating but I guess I know what the problem.
Recently I haven't been drawing much that I really wanted, but more like presents for friends, and stuff like that. Yeah, I make them out of my pure good will, however, I still force myself to do it/finish it and it just makes me hate drawing.
So what I'll do, is to ignore anything else (I'll still finish my current drawings, I want to get rid of them as soon as I can! :/ ) and do pictures, I want to make with my feelings and not self-force.
Because it seems like that the funny little sketches I draw in school in my books are better than my 'serious' art, because they come freely, and born from my feelings in the school.

All in all, I'll ignore requests even from friends and others for a while, because if I keep struggling with it, I'll hate drawing so much I don't ever want to take a pencil in my hand.

You can understand this as a "taking rest" from art, however I'll still keep drawing on paper, but I'm not going to force myself if I just can't that's it.

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I don't know how many votes I got on my poll yesterday, because I couldn't check it, but I'm going to make a website for my ideas/stories anyway, I'm just not sure what website I should make/website base I should use... Well if I'll get to that, I'll know.


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Sorry about always whining, but I really needed to write my thoughts down now. I'm sorry ;;